My turn

I guess I have concentrated on Craig since starting this blog, but now days I am seeing the effect all this is having on me too.

Fitful sleep, aches and pains, headaches. I have a low tolerance level for things I would have laughed off in the past. But the biggest thing is the realization that I am alone. Alone in fighting
for Craig's dignity, alone in trying to keep him from thinking he's been abandoned, and alone in my personal life.

Craig has always been with me since I left home.We have never been apart. Now that the initial
flurry of making arrangements is over, I find that I have no ambition to interact with people.

I used to find solace in busying myself with making sure Craig was taken care of properly. Now that I have come to realize that I am wasting my breathe trying to improve his conditions, I have
stopped waiting for life to be Normal again. Life will never be normal again. I will never be normal again.